Random Thoughts of Mine

Karma is a bitch.

There are some story of people who dealt with this term.

He used to hate sinetron, but his current job is script editor of a sinetron. He used to hate korean pop, but now he likes it. The point is, something that you hate or refuse in the past, but you have to do it in the current time.

This reminds me of my own.

For 20 years I have lived, I never believe in love (in romantic way). I grew up in a family that does not believe in love. There’s no love between couples, they said. Love is exist only between parents to her children.

So there I was, never believe in love. Until I met you, 2 years ago, December 2009.

I do remember the first ultimatum I said in our third conversation. “Sori ya, gw ga mungkin suka ama tipe2 kaya lo.”

Rude? Yes, I am.

But you found it challenging. Never stop chasing me, never stop loving me, you believed your heart that you have fallen in love with me.

Finally, I got my karma. I fell in love with you. I love you head over heels. I love you very much. I love you with all my life, my heart, my soul. Until we have to be separated in harsh way. Slowly, it froze my heart from deep down inside. 

But this karma never made me regret that I met you, to know you, to be your beloved, and to be in love with you. I am grateful I have fallen for you. Despite the sad ending, you have made my eyes wide open, you have made me believe that LOVE DOES EXIST.

It all came so easy, all the loving you gave me
The feelings we shared, and I still can remember
How your touch was so tender, it told me you cared
We had a once in a lifetime
But I just couldn’t see, until it was gone
A second once in a lifetime, may be too much to ask
But I swear from now on

If ever you’re in my arms again
This time I’ll love you much better
If ever you’re in my arms again
This time I’ll hold you forever
This time will never end

Now I’m seeing clearly
How I still need you near me
I still love you so
There’s something between us
That won’t ever leave us
There’s no letting go
We had a once in a lifetime
But I just didn’t know it
Till my life fell apart
A second once in a lifetime
Isn’t too much to ask
‘Cause I swear from the heart

The best of romances,
deserve second chances
I’ll get to you somehow
‘Cause I promise now

o lately, been wondering
Who will be there to take my place
When I’m gone you’ll need love to light the shadows on your face
If a great wave shall fall yeah fall upon us all
Then between the sand and stone could you make it on your own.

If I could, then I would
I’d go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low, I’d go wherever you will go

And maybe, I’ll find out
A way to make it back someday
To-wards you, to guide you, through the darkest of your days
If a great wave shall fall yeah fall upon us all
Well then I hope there’s someone out there
who can bring me back to you


If I could, then I would
I’d go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low, I’d go wherever you will go

Run away with my heart
Run away with my hope
Run away with my love

I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart, in your mind I’ll stay with you for all of time

If I could, then I would
I’d go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low, I’d go wherever you will go

If I could turn back time
I’d go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I’d go wherever you will go
I’d go wherever you will go

Since the moment we met, you’ve brought nothing but good things into my life

Every new thing I learn about you is happy discovery,

and every moment spent with you leaves me wanting more

I can’t help thinking of you and the way you make me feel

Your arms around me brings such comfort and warmth,

and you always know just what to do to put me at ease

Being with you has been amazing,

and I can’t help thinking of all the days that lie ahead for us to share,

days that will be all the more wonderful because of you

I love you

I hope you know that loving you has spoiled me forever

What we have together feels so right, that I often catch myself smiling for no reason

It’s great being with someone who is tuned into my moods,

someone with whom I don’t always have to explain myself

It feels do good to know that you really do accept and like me for who I am

Just being with you, doing nothing, makes me happy

This kind of chemistry happens only once in a lifetime

And I know that I could never love another as much as I Love You